So God has used 2010 as a year of climactic proportions for me and my walk with Him. It all started with my move to Korea and ever since then, He has taken me on several journeys that I never thought would somehow converge together so that God could tell me a story through the life I lived in 2010. But to keep things simple, I shall focus on two specific journeys. One journey revolves around my best friend and the other around the girl that happened to intoxicate me with an almost sinful obsession ever since my arrival in Korea. For the sake of stating the obvious, I won't use their real names but for the purpose of clearly articulating the story, I shall assign aliases. Let's call my best friend, John and my sinful obsession, Jane.
I met John through my brother when I first came to Korea. John and Paul met each other while enrolled in a global MBA program at Yonsei in 2009. John took the initiative to befriend Paul (brother) and in retrospect, if John never put effort into investing in a friendship with my brother, I would have never met John and a great deal of my transformation would have never fully manifested itself in the way that it did. You see, my brother isn't the most distinguished social butterfly; in fact, he is quite the opposite. To go into a little detail about my brother, Paul is at the core, a very rigid, logical, pragmatic, independent, and stubborn individual. He is very selective with his friends and usually doesn't have too many at the same time. Not to say that it is a bad thing that my brother is the way he is but it serves as a simple preface to the character that is my brother.
Anyways, Paul was one of the first people to challenge John in his beliefs about God and faith. John grew up in a Christian family but he never really had a desire to get to know God. In fact, he was actually fighting with Him. If you actually think about it, John's actions in befriending my brother in essence served as the catalyst to unknowingly set into motion God's ultimate plan for John, but we will get to that later.
Let's fast forward to my arrival in Korea. I got to Korea in January of 2010 and in many ways, my arrival in Korea represented many different beginnings. It represented a new beginning as a man, in redefining myself, and in finding myself in God's will. It was definitely a fresh start for me and it was greatly needed in my life. I digress. John and I clicked very well during our first encounter. I could tell that he was a pretty sophisticated man and I could see why my brother became close friends with him. As my relationship developed with John, I learned that John was actually angry with God. It worried me that John would appear agitated and frustrated whenever God came up in conversation; but despite his apparent frustrations with God, he was always open to talking about it. The focus of our conversations about God usually boiled down to one aspect of Christianity, Faith. However, given my own state in my walk with God, I just assumed that our conversations were nothing more than conversation. I remember thinking to myself, how could God possibly use me to bring John closer to God when it was no secret to John how broken I was. I was very transparent with John so he knew that I knew I didn't view myself as an ideal Christian. I still don't view myself as an ideal Christian, but that doesn't in anyway say that I love God any less than the next person. I guess you can say that I have a very abstract perspective when it comes to my relationship with God, but then again, this transformation that I am building up to would have never taken place had I not felt the way that I did.
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